Allow me to introduce myself.

You can call me Matt. That’s not my real name, but it at least gives me a label. I am a 21 year old American who’s discovering his true potential – and mental problems – a bit late in his life.

But I’m not just Matt.. I’m also Mark.

What do I mean by this?

Well, I have a disease that is ravaging my life, and I don’t think it will ever go away. Matt and Mark are just the names I use to refer to my dual personalities. No, I am not bipolar, nor am I schizophrenic. I will cover that later.

But that being said, let me introduce you to my real selves.

Matt

Matt is a blessing in my life that I cherish dearly. He:

• Is a social star.
• Finds life exciting.
• Explores new opportunities.
• Works towards goals.
• Finds balance between work and fun.
• Upholds core beliefs, but is willing to change in order to improve.

Mark

Mark, on the other hand, could use some tips. He:

• Is a social disaster.
• Lacks self confidence.
• Seeks out stimulation rather than happiness.
• Decides his time is better spent playing video games.
• Doesn’t think or care about the future.
• Wishes a lot, but never works to make things happen.
• Is borderline depressed.
• Gets distracted by others and what they think about him.

Now that you’ve met the crew, let’s jump into the most important thing in my life.

SEX.

Am I a sex addict? No. Just think about it like this: Without sex, we wouldn’t even be here. It’s an essential activity for growing couples and college kids alike. It’s so powerful that advertisers use it to catch our attention.

But most importantly for me, it is the only thing that triggers my split personality.

Yeah, you heard me right. For some reason, whenever I have sex (or even jerk off!) I transition from Matt to Mark and stay that way for 2-3 days! And this isn’t some NoFap bullshit. I genuinely have a lower brain function for days after having sex.

I try to manage my personalities by abstaining from sex, but I often find myself bending the knee to lust.

It’s a vicious cycle.

A young man can only abstain from sex and masturbating for so long. Every week (at least) I give in and “reset” back to Mark and fuck things up. The rest of the week is spent trying to recover.

Have you ever read something so motivational that it fundamentally changed the way you think? Because that’s me every week.

Every time I reset I forget the ambitions, confidence, and mental fortitude from my last cycle. I have to start anew. But every time this happens, I discover something new. Something that could fundamentally change someone’s views on life to make them a better person.

This blog isn’t about my journey through life – it’s about improving yours.

Dual personalities, dual penmanship

Both Matt and Mark will make posts here. Both have good advice to give, but sometimes you need to take them with a grain of salt.

Matt knows he is amazing, and wants to help you grow with him.

Mark knows he is shit, but wants to help you learn how not to live your life.

All of life is a journey. You, me, and every person out there on this crowded planet are all struggling side by side. Some will succeed, but most will fail.

Let Matt and Mark impart their wisdom unto you. Their successes and failures will teach you to lead a fulfilling life.

Until next time,

Matt